YOU GUYS HAVE TO REMIND ME THAT MY LIVEJOURNAL EXISTS!!


*ahem* once upon a time there was a prince by the name of Sandra Ton Shinji who in her last two years of Hellschool discovered that she had a long lost twin brother, but who would have thought that the prince's twin would actually GROW A FEW FEET in the time that we've been gone.

[i've been meaning to do that for a while LOL]

it was my birthday on the 21's and let me say that the party Diana threw us [nicole, sandra and myself] was made of winsauce, and the cake was just asdfkjalslfkasjd!!<33 [will post pictures and the suprise I had on monday in a later post of awesome epicness]

y Luisaaaaaa!! muchas gracias por el email que me mandasteee!!! Aqui te tome una foto de la Damar!! jaja [ella no sabe que lo tome!]

^{she's eating a mario marshmallow pop thing}

getting into ap art?
tell me? so I can just spend most of my days pwning at pencil-based art instead of g'damn tempur paint.
I'll sacrifice the two lunches a week to do it.
Though i'll probably do nothing but portraits.
:D;;

[don't have any sad icons sorry]I guess bad things were supposed to happen, it's kinda sad that it's almost my birthday though I'm not expecting anyone in my family to remember, I just kinda needed to rant. I can't really keep up with my mum anymore... I feel like I'm some sort of replacement for her lost child, [you see I wasn't the first born] but some stuff happened to me when I was still in elementary school and I supressed all of it up until about that day that I missed school in junior year when it all came back.

sunday: went all the way down to mexico, got threatened by immigration, they thought I was here illegally, didn't get home until 12:30 am, exactly why I was tired monday.
monday:...I don't remember much....don't think I want to
tuesday: cops came by asking us if we were being abused...I ended up telling them about my childhood...for those of you that know what happened...yeah it was that. got even less sleep from all the crying.

wednsday: rearranged my room, nearly broke my back doing so, my stuff got smashed.

thursday: sep 11th, it was probably the best day.

friday: willie was doggienapped.

saturday: found out our washingmachine was broken.
sunday: forced to go to church after like a year of not going, got yelled at before, and during. got yelled at for having short hair spaghetti monster damn it all I'm getting that fucking mullet. got lectured at by a stranger about how emo I look. my mom complained to everyone at church about how emo I look. she's forcing me to take down my myv gazette alicenine lm.c lolikisa posters, and I think I'm going to be internetless from now on.
to all those that have things to say to me, do it by mail or phone.
the_only_mexicant@hotmail.com

tell me who you are.

cell phone number was already given away, but ask if you still don't have it.

lol so I can check this in the future,[[trying to learn it]] << and If anyone wants to lean it too
:D

Guitar 1 (Acoustic Steel) – Aoi
Guitar 2 (Distorted) – Uruha

Intro:

Guitar 1 - Aoi
e|---2----0---2|---2---0----2|-------2-------|----------------|
B|------0------|----------0--|---2------2----|-------------3-2|
G|----------2--|-------------|-----2------2--|-----2---2------|
D|-2-----------|-0---0-------|-2------------2|-0-4---4---4----|
A|-------------|-------------|---------------|----------------|
E|-------------|-------------|---------------|----------------|

e|---2---0----2|---2---0----2|-------2-------|----------------|
B|-----0-------|----------0--|---2------2----|----------------|
G|----------2--|-------------|-----2------2--|----------------|
D|-2-----------|-0---0-------|-2------------2|----------------|
A|-------------|-------------|---------------|-0--------------|
E|-------------|-------------|---------------|----------------|

Main Riff:

Guitar 1
e|-2-2-2-2------------------------------|
B|-3-3-3-3-----------------7-7-7-7------|
G|-4-4-4-4-4-4-4-4-6-6-6-6-7-7-7-7------|
D|-4-4-4-4-5-5-5-5-7-7-7-7-7-7-7-7------| x4
A|-2-2-2-2-5-5-5-5-7-7-7-7-5-5-4-4------|
E|---------3-3-3-3-5-5-5-5--------------|
Bm G A D Dmaj7

Guitar 2
e|-10------9----10----12-----10-----9---|
B|-10-----10----10----10-----10----10---|
G|-11-x16--9-x8-11-x8-11-x16-11-x8--9-x8|
D|--9-----11-----9-----9------9----11---| x4
A|--------------------------------------|
E|--------------------------------------|

I only got till this part

I got it here, but I wouldn't click on it, my friend said that it sent her lots of pop ups and stuffs

seriously...
umm, some of you know, some of you don't. I lost my phone a while ago.
got a new one. Want the number? I can give it to you, just ask.

erm...just being a Junior in general is tireing[sp?]
I still don't know what I wanna do as in career wise. Maybe something that involves art...it's the only thing I can do decently to some extent.
ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh, Remember how messed up my wig got during KatSumeragi's birthday rave?
I finally fixed it...well kinda, the ends are a little rough so I might just end up cutting it haha and maybe dye it blue xDDD
oh yeah, some things that you guys missed at my birthday party thing last year, my dad crossdresses sometimes just to make us laugh, so he had some women's clothing on and wierd makeup stuff?[I'm not shure what it was exactly] but he painted on some eyelashes and his lips were red.


**these are from last night*
and then afterwards he put on my alice dress, but I think it's broken now...I still have to check.
erm...yeah, he's pretty old now...but I still love him.
ah! Howl's moving caslte is on now, so yeah, I'll try to update more and check your guy's LJ's more often. Later!

I cleared up a spot for it on my wall of randomness and it doesn't wanna stay up
T^T

Jaesus!!!!! I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!<333!!
they are like the most awesomesauce friends on the planet I love them so much!!!
I have no idea what I would be without them.
I was unexpecingly pummeled with cristmas presents yesterday. I was y'know expecting a couple, but only cause they had told me in advance, but seriously Q^Q

what I got:
from Diana-
a Domo plushie!!!
Iv'e been wanting one for the longest time now!!! but sadly I had to violate it xDDD
*hegotcandycaneonhisbackandIlickeditoff* lawl

from Raven:
magic dissapearing erasers!!!! :D
pretty stuffs for my hair, this lip balm stuff that smells like apples <3
Miyavi hair blue eye makeup!!!<333 and pretty eye decorations so I can be the pretty jrock princess I wanna be xDDDD

from Nicole[toshi]:
PILOT GLASSES!!!!! haha giant stunna shades! and the latest shoxx magazine featuring alice nine xD (and you wouldn't believed how I spazzed when I saw Miyavi in it)
I can't get the poster to stay though -_-;;

from Sandra [shinji]:
a virgo phone charm cause we are VIRGOOOOO!!!!
chop sticks (I have no idea of the use as of yet though)
and the same Miyavi blue jelly bracelets!!! now I truly am invincible in the jellybracelet race!! >D

From Ismael: a kingdom hearts SORA ACTION FIGURE!!!! <3333
I screamed like a fangirl when I opened it, that and sweared like a sailor xD;;

and last but not least Ean: he gave me this really soft black scarf Q^Q
it is like the warmest!!! <33

different subject: my dog had puppies yesterday morning, which is why I was late, six of them.
Sadly, I think one of them is going to die, cause it's face is purple, it's belly isn't hard like the other puppies and it's ubr scrawny. I don't think he's eating or breathing right.
I think that the death of an infant anything is sad :[

larararara...
haha
learning a song obviously Miyavi [Itoshii HIto] yeah the song that should be playing xD there's two versions so feel free to listen to both [actually there's three, but I'm too lazy to find the third]
I'm going to sing for a friend that graduated last year and I don't get to see him very often anymore
so he's learning the frets on his guitar, and 'course I do the singing
but I chose a song that's a bit hard
xD
have most of it memorized, but sadly enough I can't do it without the music...
gawd I love his voice, it sounds like it's going to break, but it never does haha kinda like mine...'cept my voice is a bit more scratchy sounding -_-;;
maybe when I figure out LJ more I'll put my singing up xD


on another note
my friend Raven turns 16 this year
she's having a sweet 16 party, I'm sooo glad she's not like them spoiled bishes on tv SOOO GLAD!!
haha
anyways the party is alice in wonderland themed and surprise surprise I'm alice xD
Raven's the queen of hearts. my friend Nicole whom we call Toshi is the Cheshire cat, My friend Sandra, whom we call Shinji, is the mad hatter, my friend Jon-jon is the Mad march hare[ex-sleepydoor], Rika is the white rabbit. That's all I can think of now, but wer'e supposed to be dressed Lolita style, I have the design for my dress ready, and am going on saturday to get my measurments haha of course my boobs won't be as big as Diana's xDDD but still I don't envy her I wish I had smaller ones lol everyone says I'm crazy. Anyways back to topic we might have a photoshoot, not too shure, but the party itself has its own website,here, basically it's an invitation for now, and it sais that theyr'e going to have photos up so maybe I can snatch one and you all can see what I really look like xD
so you won't think I'm some old guy that's a total wierdo and watches internetz porn hahahaha
but what I'm really looking forward to getting is the wig, seeing as how my hair isn't exactly shoulder length... well it is now but who's heard of a short haired alice xD
that, or i'm gettin extentions, which I bet is really paifull... and I'm going to be in pig tails?!!!! haha I'm going to make them like bou from an cafe xD as soon as I learn how to spike hair like j-rockers
haha so anyways this is bouyes it's a guy, but I also love his guitar playing xD almost as much as meever's haha
*noticesmakeyourownharajukudolladdonthesidebutresistscausesheknowthatthisjournalwilldissapear*
so the dress will look something like this, but of course of my own design, now I just have to figure out what to do about the shoes xD

if I do get a haircut, it's going to be like Miyavi's Jibun kakumei,[two more inches to go on the back] or girls be ambitious xDD
my mom's all for it, my dad thinks he looks like he's gay which totally made me laugh *remembersmiyavifanservice*
that way I WILL REALLY LOOK LIKE KADAJ!!! haha except my parents won't let me dye my hair like that, even though my MOM dyes her hair on a regular basis... and I have just as many greys as she does...
and I DO NOT HAVE AIDS!!! D:
[haha inside joke I'll explain if you ask] xD
so LJ doesn't warn me when you guys post blogs anymore, so a reminder would be nice -_-;;
and I'm sorry if I don't comment some of them!! D:

[I love the song at the bottom]
so I decided to not get a new phone, the one I have works just fine, but I'm a bit worried about the phone my mother has seeing as it's not the best kind one can have it's cool looking and all, but not very reliable...

I remember having a dream a few nights back about my mother, she was trying to kill me, but the thing is, that I wasn't afraid of dieing... after that I kept thinking about that dream
I told her about it but she said she would never do such a thing. That got me thinking even more, people's hearts change so how can I trust anyone for sure? I feel bad for those that fall in love with me. Being human is such a complicated thing, I don't really like it.

so enough with the sad things, I'm working on a bunch of requests for my buddies on DeviantArt, currently working on Colonello, and Cloud. I didn't think it was going to be this hard for me to be satisfied with such charachters, but I think it's because I'm not all that into Katekyo HItman Reborn, and I still have yet to play any Final fantasy game >.<;; [and my drawing skills still have to improve a lot xD]
really hating myself for that, but either way, I wouldn't be able to play videogames anymore, my parents only buy them because of my little brother but I'm glad at least someone gets to have their way arround here, even if it is just a little

my grades are still sucking
D:
luckily I don't think report cards will be here for another week and a half
two bad grades, and I really am getting lost in chemistry... it's not so much the stuff we have to learn, but the rate that wer'e learning things, that, and the fact that the class is never quiet, always socializing and the kid that sits behind me is so distracting, I would have switched out already but I don't wanna let my partner down any more than I already have.
I'd ask Aryan to help me, but I don't think that would work out either. The same thing is happening in Algebra 2, the teacher is always talking about himself, and when he finally decides to talk algebra, the bell has already rung and I really don't want to go to tutoring, mainly because it's always crowded and I don't like to have people wait for me...

Iv'e been watching NANA a lot lately, I think it was the whole punk thing that attracted me to it. But you know it really got me thinking, I should appreciate the things that Iv'e been given in life, but I can't do it... I can't be thankfull for all the wonderfull people arround me. Do you know why people are never satisfied? I wish I did. why are men and women objects of desire to each other? sometimes it works out differently but I wish I knew the answer to that too...


my hair is getting longer by the day, and my mum still forgets or refuses to cut it. I don't like showing my face very much. I know I'm not the prettiest girl out there, but I envy them at times, and other times I feel sorry for them, for a while I knew what they felt but now I'm just not sure.

I'm rethinking my whole career direction, instead of being a pediatritian, I might do something in graphic design that seems more along the lines of my skill and intelect, somewhat, I'm not a bright person, but I definately know that I wouldn't be able to help little children out seeing as how I don't really like kids anymore, although I act like one myself.

Sorry for the random blogness of stuff but if anyone wants me to explain some things I would be happy to write about it. now I should really start doing my homework so later!


^{if you couldn't hear the song, here it is}

xD
isn't that obvious though
xD
so here's a song that seems to get me,
even though I am a bit iletterate...
here goes
:D

and for those of you that don't know who Miyavi is,
[that's Miyavi] xD
well let's just say that he's a guy m'kay?
xD
here's the lyrics so you know what's going on :)
<sup>If you're alright with these stained hands, I'd offer them to you any time
We don't need any maps or signs, close your eyes and we'll walk together.

It hurts more when you pull out a knife
then when you stab it, did you know that?
A flower doesn't even know how pretty it is, ever in its life.
Isn't that sad.

If you hang on to my back,
a little wind wouldn't harm, right?
come on, if you're gonna be slow like that I'll leave you behind
Boys & Girls hurry, hurry up

I guess I can't give you a kiss goodnight
I'm sorry, I'll sing for you instead
How about we're "even" now?
But what do you mean by "amiable"?
Is this line kinda awkward?

If you give me a chance, apologize and I say Girls, be ambitious

On lonely nights,
An undescribable restlessness,
a fear you just can't run from, a loneliness that makes you wanna cry
Unfortunately come visit you too, huh?

So that you could sleep tight on nights like that
Here's a charm.</sup>

listening to Diru
and doing my homework
:D
even though it is really late
>>;
anyways,
the song i'm listening to
:]

I'm listening to the kingdom hearts 2 soundtrack
and it made me wanna cry, I know that's a little pathetic, but I don't really care
:P
I loved both the games and can't wait for final mix+ and the keyblede wars to come out!!!
damn my allergies are acting up again
>>;
why is this happening anyways, it's not like i'm near anything that I could be possibly allergict to...
oh well
~~~~
next time!
:D

antique cafe, but the first singer I bacame a fan of was Miyavi
xD

:D yeah about time too! ha ha my icon is distracting me xD

aaannnd now I rant, today at lunch there was this guy next to me aaaannnnddd he had a Miyavi button on his backpack xD of course I spazzed when I saw it so when he was done talking to his friend, I was like "you like Miyavi?!" with a big smile on my face he smiled back and was like "yeah". Of course I told him that I spazzed when I saw it, and told him that he was like my favorite singer ha ha did I mention that I thougt the guy was cute :D that's pretty much all I have to say right now so, 'til next time!